“worthless”

If Facebook and Twitter have done anything for us, they have given us benchmarks by which to measure our significance.   How many friends/followers you have determine how much of a worthwhile contribution others believe you make to their life. 

There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be a person of worth.  We all long for significance.  I would be the first in line to confess that I have had exceptional struggles with self-significance. 

Jeremiah 2:5b-6a rocked my heart this morning.  “They followed worthless idols and became worthless themselves.  They did not ask, ‘Where is the LORD?'”  The prophet goes on to say in verse 8, “The priests did not ask, ‘Where is the LORD?’  Those who deal with the law did not know me; the leaders rebelled against me.  The prophets prophesied by Baal, following worthless idols.”

There is no significance without the LORD.  I’m convicted of how easily I follow idols. I’m concerned for how quickly the Church and its leaders allow their hearts to become captured by that which is worthless.  Are we church leaders asking “Where is the Lord?”  Or are we only interested in acquiring more followers for ourselves?  Do we earnestly desire to see people find the LORD or just to discover how witty, smart or impressive we are?  Five Facebook friends or 1,000, there is no significance without the LORD.  

I fear we’ve become consumed with ourselves–our latest update (Honestly, who cares what you are doing.  What is God doing?); our most current thought (What is God thinking?  Are His thoughts precious to us? Ps. 139:17); the search for public praise (Who is praising God?  Who is finding Him worthy?  Who is telling of His power and the wonders He has done?).

If we don’t guard our hearts, Facebook and Twitter and conference invites and book deals can become worthless idols.  WE can become worthless idols…worshipping ourselves or leading others to falsely conclude we are worth worshipping. 

“Consider then and realize how evil it is for you when you forsake the LORD your God and have no awe of me” declares the Lord, the LORD Almighty.  Jeremiah 2:19.

“be yourself”

Jason Young wrote a great post on “What Unhealthy Leaders Taught Me.”  You can read it here http://www.jasonyounglive.com/2009/11/10/what-unhealthy-leaders-taught-me/.

I admit, I think he and I might have learned some of the same lessons from the same bad leaders.  I would go so far as to say I’ve learned more from bad leaders than I have from good ones. 

However, I think there is one lesson omitted from the list. 

One lesson I have learned: If you want to be an unhealthy leader, pretend to be someone else to make others happy. 

There is nothing worse than trying to follow someone who is trying to be someone they are not.  There is no conviction or confidence.  Everything is hand-me-down PR images.

As a woman in ministry, being myself is a real struggle every single day of my existence.   There are so many expectations placed upon women–we’re expected to be strong emotionally, but weak positionally.  We’re supposed to direct our responsibilities faithfully, but eagerly defer to men when they are ready to lead.  We’re expected to follow the promptings of the Holy Spirit, but not show up anyone in the process.  It’s confusing.

Personally, I’m worn out from the confusion.  I need to be who I was created to be…it honors God to bear the image He intended me to wear.   Too much posturing around the opinion of humans is crippling.  In the end, I just become the knock-off version of someone else and not the ‘me’ who has been called “for a time such as this.”

My mom had it right when she said, “Just be yourself.  If others don’t like you, that’s between them and God.”