Gentle me, Holy One,
into an unclenched moment,
a deep breath,
a letting go
of heavy expectancies, of shriveling anxieties,
of dead certainties,
that softened by the silence,
surrounded by the light, and open to the mystery,
I may be found by wholeness,
upheld by the unfathomable, entranced by the simple,
and filled with the joy that is You.
~Ted Loder, Guerrillas of Grace
Why must uncertainty feel like fear? Why does it stalk us with unanswered questions and smirk upon our unknowing? Why do our hearts sink so quickly into sands of worry?
Yes, gentle us, Lord. Unclench our moment. Increase our trust.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. ~The Holy One (Joshua 1:9)
It was a quiet little conversation, snuck away from the splashing of the pool. “I remember disappointing my parents…” And all our hearts sake with the heaviness of memory and the weight of prophetic awareness; my kids too will feel … Continue reading
Disappointment–it is seemingly everywhere. It moves in and out of our lives as a reminder that we’re fallen people living with other fallen people in a fallen world. Yet our hearts long for the ideals; the perfect little life lived to the rhythm of happily ever after. Disappointment–we can’t escape it; it must be faced. But how?
Suppose we are on a steamer which has a huge anchor. What is the use of the anchor if it stays on the steamer? It is to be cast into the water so as to stabilize the vessel. It is not to stay put on the steamer. Likewise is it with faith. Faith never believes in what is in us; faith casts itself upon the Lord Jesus. It is cast from us to Christ. Let me tell you, should the steamer be loaded with even larger anchors, it will not be steadied unless those anchors are thrown into the water. The more we look at ourselves, the more disappointed we become. But if we cast the anchor of faith onto the cross of the Lord Jesus we shall have peace. ~Watchman Nee
What does this mean to you?
I know in my own life that when I am disappointed I will often turn in on myself, obsessed with my pain, other’s offense, my failure, other’s insensitivity. Back and forth my thinking takes me deeper down into me.
Faith is what pushes us back from the dangerous rocks of self-focus. Our hope is in Christ and it is on Him that we anchor our thoughts. He who knows the disappointment of the cross can most adequately help us in our sadness. He who knows the cross also knows its power; knows there is joy after sorrow, life after death. There is resurrection. God is bigger than our disappointment!
“This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast and one which enters with the veil, where Jesus has entered as a forerunner for us, having become a high priest forever according to the order of Melchizedek” ~Hebrews 6:19-20.
How have you learned to “cast your anchor of faith onto the cross”? Maybe you are in need of hope today? The comment box below can be used to share both ways you’ve learned to look to Christ in times of disappointment, as well as for sharing how you need hope. Let’s encourage one another.
Do you have unanswered prayer? Are you wondering why the hand of God appears still? For all those who are in the cleft of waiting and wondering:
If I wonder why something trying is allowed, and press for prayer that it may be removed; if I cannot be trusted with any disappointment, and cannot go on in peace under mystery, then I know nothing of Calvary love. ~Amy Carmichael
Your prayers may be unanswered, but they are not unheard. May the love of Calvary fill up your waiting and wondering with peace and grace. “And he has said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness‘” ~2 Corinthians 12:9.